Finally, The One...I hope! :D

Alright, so finally I think that I might have found the right girl. She's cute, funny, and absolutely adorable in every way! I absolutely love her smile. It gives me such a warm feeling every time I make her smile. She's so smart. I've never known anyone as smart as her.  She's such a spiritually strong girl that it makes me wish that I wa a better person evey time I hear her testimony. Even though it's been a long time since I've heard her bear her testimony, I can still remember it and I wish that I could hear it more often. Every time I hear her, or I see her, I get that feeling in my chest that I'm happy and safe. I always feel safe with her. As strange as it sounds, I always get that light-headed, weak-kneed feeling when I'm around her.

 I don't know how many times that I have felt this way before. All I know is, this feeling is so much stronger, and I have never been so sure until now. I've done a lot of praying about it so know that I am on track.

I am sad though. I told her how I felt, and she asked for some time to think on it so I granted her wish. After giving her time, she told me that she was flattered and that she wanted to just be friends for now. I understand that. She is homeschooled. We hardly ever see each other. The only time that we ever really talk is on Facebook. She has a very busy life. She simply doesn't have the time to talk to me every single minute of every single day, and I'm cool with that.

I just hope that I  don't end up screwing this up. I've done that so many times where I've had the opportunity to have a really good relationship with someone. I am very excited though. On the 25th of May, she and one of her friends are holding a Fundraising Ball for their group, "Still-To-Be-Named Shakespeare Group," and I asked her to Prom and she told me yes! There are some big opportunities for us to get to know each other better and create some memories. Also, she's never been to Prom before. This is exceptionally fortunate for me, since it is my honor to take the love of my life to her and my first Prom. I hope that she has a good time and that She really remembers this always as something to tell when she gets older. The feeling that I get when I have the opportunity to touch others' lives and make others' feel better is overwhelming.

I miss her terribly!! I only wish that these events would come sooner, as I don't know how long I can keep the intense emotion of love from driving me insane... I honestly couldn't be happier with life right now though. Other than the fact that my math grade sucks and it's totally and completely ruining my life, the above still stands! ha That's all for now! :)